though i know that i you are really contented, happy, and more than glad that the financial instability is finally going away... i wish that you'll be more open about how you feel towards me, you'll talk to me, sms me sweet little msgs... i wish i knew how you felt towards me, how important i am to you. sometimes, i wonder how u felt if i weren't around. silly thoughts i guess i dunno maybe i miss you... maybe i feel that i can never fill the shoes that beixuan has had... maybe that are no shoes, i just have to be me... i dunno.

i enjoyed the weekend spending with you watching tvb dramas, fishing, simple bus rides or journies from one place to another. i wish we spent more alone time together. i miss the long nights we spent together at east coast, at labrador. with your new work schedule that is coming up, know thess nights are gonna be harder to come by. but i'll just make do with what i have and enjoy the times spent with you to the fullest. but could i ask to kidnap you on friday night, where it's just us, a slow drive to i dunno where, a simple chat, with you holding me.

i don't know why such a post came about. but i'm sorry and pardon this post. just read it for you info. love you.