i havent been feeling the best of moods lately. i'm not sure why too. but i do know for sure that suddenly i'm missing brissy alot. the times spent with friends 24/7 doing thing we enjoy together, or even simple dinners or celebrations are such great fun.

maybe i miss the company, darlin nicole, my housemate gracie. though i meet gracie pretty often sometimes doing nothing just slacking at her place but it's just different i guess. as for my momo, i call her pretty often, often enough to irritate her i suppose. but nothing beats the physical meet ups. i miss the bubble tea sessions with the girls, kookai shopping, city outting, lecture sessions with momo, bus journeys to and from school, gym sessions.... etc.

i miss the guys for the road trips they bring us on, even if it's just a simple drive to gold coast for yama. miss the guys for sending us to school, dinners in down town city, shopping trips to harbourtown or dfo, sunshine coast etc. and i guess i miss him for the simple little surprises he used to give me... and my babe benefit in a way, how leslie would surprise you know who... along with momo and i.

brissy has many many memories dating back from mid 2006 to end 2008 though i never spent really long holidays, the photos accumulated mount up to over a 1000 pictures, pictures cannot describe how one feels, but yet i'm glad to say they allowed me to capture the many happy moments i've shared with each and everyone of you who have walked through with me this 1.5years.

it's been a year almost. perhaps i'm hoping someday, all of us could go on a getaway, a short one to maybe try and relive the moments catch up with one another admist our hectic lifestyle. i have to say that every moment spent with you guys are well cherished and kept in my heart.

Are You Really In Love?
Result: It's Love!
Whether you've been with your sweetheart forever or you just started dating, there's definitely a love vibe going on. You like to kick back and have fun together, but your feelings extend deeper than that. No matter how bad things get, you know you'll be there for each other. And that's the foundation of a strong, mature relationship. Now get out there and gross out all your friends with PDA's and other cutesy stuff.

i think i'm the luckiest girl to have found you
cos you're so forgiving with me,
the things you do
just makes me love you more

i little things you say
"i love you honey", "you wouldn't bear to kill me"
that you knew i meant alot to you
it's all these little things that make my heart melt

you don't have to give your life to me
just cos off all the things have done
but cos i know you can love me
and take good care of me

never see me hurt
nor hurt me
i don't know why
but you give me the feeling that i'm afraid to lose you

i may love to drive
but when you drive me around
i feel the safest
i love the way you hold my hand while you drive

the way you reach out to hold my hand
the way you give me that little kiss
i want you here
and i'm glad to be to your big part of your life

it's a long journey ahead with many uncertainties
but i'm sure together we can overcome this
if we are one
if we compromise

i'm sorry for the times i felt insecure
or inferior
but i guess i'm afraid to lose you
afraid thati wont be able to fill those shoes

but i guess i needn't worry
i just need to be myself
cos that's what you love me for
and we compromise for

thanks for the many fishing trips
doing things have never done before
you teach me many things
and a relationship is all about this

learning and growing together
and i'm glad you are here to grow with me
and to support me
and know that i'll be here to with every step you take

*hope it doesn't scare you that i can love you so much
i'm not trying to be over protective
but i really cherish whatever we share

suddenly i feel so stupid, i stumbled upon 2 comments you left on my blog and that brought me to tears i dunno why. perhaps cos i felt stupid for the previous post though i knew that at the back of my head i meant something to you.

i'm sorry

though i know that i you are really contented, happy, and more than glad that the financial instability is finally going away... i wish that you'll be more open about how you feel towards me, you'll talk to me, sms me sweet little msgs... i wish i knew how you felt towards me, how important i am to you. sometimes, i wonder how u felt if i weren't around. silly thoughts i guess i dunno maybe i miss you... maybe i feel that i can never fill the shoes that beixuan has had... maybe that are no shoes, i just have to be me... i dunno.

i enjoyed the weekend spending with you watching tvb dramas, fishing, simple bus rides or journies from one place to another. i wish we spent more alone time together. i miss the long nights we spent together at east coast, at labrador. with your new work schedule that is coming up, know thess nights are gonna be harder to come by. but i'll just make do with what i have and enjoy the times spent with you to the fullest. but could i ask to kidnap you on friday night, where it's just us, a slow drive to i dunno where, a simple chat, with you holding me.

i don't know why such a post came about. but i'm sorry and pardon this post. just read it for you info. love you.