Blogging from my bb

Just finish watching his masters qualifiers. Are my expectations too high as a result of my disappointment? I guess cos he's someone so dear and that I know he's capable of more. It seems like you had 'give up' written all over your face and your just leaving it up to the man up there. But did u know while others were struggling, I know you were capable of more. There were so many of us behind you, you have got simply nothing to lose if you had put up a good fight.I know bowling 10 games was certainly not easy and it can be mentally draining, I guess in my eyes you were just so much stronger

I guess my expectations were just too high. Anyway, no point talking so much.It's over. I should just let it go.

4 more days

4 more days to our next anniversary.

tell me what this relationship means to you....

or should i say, what is relationship all about?

Romance, surprises, dates, special times, compromise....

i know you would think, every month, i must do this once,
put you thru this torture with all my thoughts.

i know you love me,
that's no doubt about it.

but sometimes, it isn't just about the feeling
it's about the actions too.

i need occasional surprises
occasional pampering

sometimes, i feel like it's empty promises
words without actions.

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this is what girl's would do for the ones they love

it's the moment of joy their love ones have when they do something sweet for them.

buy something they know the other desires despite being financially tight.

they always worry about the other first.

to them, nothine beats seeing the ones they love all happy and in smiles.

but is that the case for you men?

we often wonder.....

it's been awhile

it's really been awhile since i've last blogged... been really lazy. 2/3 of the year is nearly coming to an end and my polar bear and i are a few days a way from being together for a whole year. this year's been great, truely a wonderful one though we've had a fair share of squabbles, nothing to dramatic which is great. i've come to realise how much i want this relationship to work and over the months i've known that i've loved you so much more. the little things you do, making sure the fan is blown at me when i'm trying to nap, spending little nights together and so on. so we cross our first year anniversary, i know that there's more to come and i'm sure we'll have many more great years ahead.

like what nick has said, over the last 48 hours, it was really memorable. me being so involved in a wedding for a first time, giving my maid of honour speech that brought the emotional me to tears, seeing more best friend get married and most importantly being a part of it was simply the best! Thanks babe for all that you've done for me and being a part of my life, thanks for the suite u gave us to spend the night with. As you embark onto your next journey, i wish you all the best in this blissful message and wonderful times ahead as you walk on with Tony.

for more detailed description of the wedding,
http://nicky85.blogspot.com

chaoz

life's been great i suppose
although the occasional hiccups with my dear
but all's good

bowling session's getting better with pin 10's
and free coaching from my bf
so starting to see alittle more scores
and aliitle more betting with the bf!

every couples has its days,
ups and downs
some pull it through some don't
for me, i'll hang in there
cos i know, i cant bear to leave him

his little actions,
make sure i don't carry my ball to long a dist bcos of a strain neck
always wanting the best for me
putting me at first
just tells me how much he loves me

as i'm typing this post.
dearest is asleep and i'm up cos the little one is simply full of nonsense
trying to get his teeth on anything that he can bite
for your fyi... MR BF he took my camera out of my bag!

10 April 2009

what seemed like a normal fishing trip at a place we had been too many times took un unexpected turn. we arrived at NSRCC at around 10ish, parked the car, waited for the guys to set up their stuff before to took a walk to a further and different place, a tidebreaker nearby.

as francis, angeline and i walked towards half of the tidebreaker, we heard a gentle sound... it was a little kitten meowing for help and it was coming from the rocks at the bottom near the water. as we took a closer look, francis spotted the kitten, but we were simply carry too many things, so we took a few more steps, put the things aside before trying to save that little life. after outting our stuff down, we walked back, the meowing had stopped. but francis was stille able to spot it and brought her up from the rocks. when she she taken out, she was shivering, all cold and wet from the sea current splashing on her. guess the afternoon's raing didn't make it any better. i knew by leaving her here not getting fred to buy food wasnt gonna help. the little one would still freeze, i thought of Mira, gave her a call and immediately, i rushed to the car and drove quickly over with angeline and the kitten in a little container. while carrying the little one out, she was whinning and meowing and all i could do was try to pacify her and get her to somewhere warmer faster.

when we arrived at mira's place, she had gotten a towel and basket ready to embrace and take care of the little one. i took the towel, dried her up alittle, checked for little fleas which there were none, mira prepared milk and we fed her. knowing she was in very safe hands, i left to join the guys (telling the little one to make it good and hang on) and to celebrate with a suprise cake for my darling. i msged mira, and she updated the status of the little one

11 April 00:42 she's sleeping like a baby, she's dried up, stopped shivering and is sleeping at the corner of mira's room.

00:44 my dad, she's so quiet, not even my mom knows she's around.haha

00:49 no prob, can drop by in the evening, well she's definitely pulled my dad's heartstrings, we're watching her, make sure she stablize asap.

and both mira and the little one went to bed. i headed back telling nick aboutthe little one and all, Praying she would survive. but this morning, mira msged and called saying her condition took for a turn. i didn't have the car, or i would have rushed down, hence mira and her dad rushed the little one to mount pleasant. but it was too late, the little one's heart stopped as they just arrived. after mush attempted to revive it... she's just didn't make it. when mira called she too was in tears, and my tears just started flowing too.

i just wonder, why make us find her at the rocks all wet and cold fighting for a chance of survival, and just when she even finds someone to save her and prevent her from being washing in the coming currents, she doesn't even make it past 24 hours. all i can say is we've tired our best, to save the little one, tyring to give it a better home, but guess the weather didn't make it easy for her to fight for survival. no one knows how she got there, how long she's been there, and if she had hidden illness. but for sure, i was afraid she had peumonia, after being in such circumstances.

we pray for your safe departure, though it was tough. i'll remember your tiger eye coloured eyes, dark grey and a tinge of brownish gold on the tip of your furs. somehow, i'm feeling so upset.

anywhoos.... Happy Birthday My Dearest!

it's all great!

The weekend has just passed nothing really eventful. but nonetheless we both cherish and appreciate the moments spent together

Caught Race to Witch Mountain on friday night
and my baby satisfied my cravings for Canele on Sat night
we took a nap at east coast park in the car... funny right.
we headed out after dinner at his aunt's place and sending his dad home.
following that it was too early
so we took a drive, took a nap in the car
then i briefly mentioned about having Canele
and after the nap, Canele it was (4 macaroons, a chocolate cake (which baby ate most of it and 2 Caneles, which he now likes too.)
then fishing tackle shop again.

sat him to work the past few days,
then it was watching him bowl his national league,
and suddenly i became his manager

anyway, enough of recounting what we did.
just wanna say that i'm loving every single moment with him
and hun, thanks for always driving me around,
letting me fall asleep in the car when i'm tired,
taking me to new places to eat,
satisfying my cravings,
and most importantly
holding my hand has we travel from place to place.

*pls take care of your health k, it's a long way more as we venture this journey together*

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

it's been a wonderful journey so far
with little complaints
though we do have our little moments
not arguing but little bickers

you give me the simple faith
and a sense of security
you have your charisma
and you can charm gals

but i hope you'll really protect what we share
this special feeling,
wont go away....
i pray

Sometimes i wish time could fast forward

i wish i could fast forward to 5 years time,
so i could see what job i would be in,
so i could rewrite the outcome,

so i could know if i would still be with him,
knowing where this will take us,
if we could overcome all obstacles.

sometimes i feel lost,
cos the future sometimes just isn't within our control

Happy Valentine's Day! (edited)

To all my dearest who pop by to read my blog, Happy Valentine's Day!


Momo: Happy Valentine's Day to you and Wilson. Though apart, i know you guys miss each other dearly and your hearts beat as one.



Gracie: Though Kunnie is gonna be heading for training soon, i know you guys will make it well :) Dun Worry too much! just call me when you need someone to go out k! i'll ditch Nick for you!



To all my other couples out there, happy valentine's day and treasure each and everyone closest to you. never be afraid to show how much you love them you never know when you wont get a chance to or come to regret.

Today, the night started off with something simple, fishing! something we always do while he's off over the weekend. picked me up at around 930 and we headed to ponggol and we didn't get home till 7am. though the night wasn't spent alot, but i enjoyed the little moments i hugged or even kissed him. woke up at finally 2 plus. had lunch that his dad bought before we headed out for What the Butler Saw at the Drama Centre Theatre. followed by supper with the guys and huddath's fren from NY. and so the day went by like that. but i got a little surprise a bracelet that fitted so well and it looked amazing when i put it on. it's really nice and thank you darlin. it may not be from Tiffany like you said, but it's from your heart and it's all that matters. the note in it was even sweeter. just like how i would have wrote it, this will be the first but not the last.

i love you dear and i love every moment waking with you next to me. our days out maybe simple and quite routine.... so SURPRISE ME! but i have to say even watching you bowl is great, and fun. the way you punt and i tell you nt too or the simple looks you give me, the winks, the smiles or even the simple hugs. it's just really great.

Thanks dear. for everything little thing you do!

Did I Marry The Right Person?

This is a very good article. Those who are still single may learn something from here...
Those who are already married may take it as a guideline to improve your marriage & relationship ...

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, 'How do I know if I married the right person?'
I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, 'It depends. Is that your husband?'
In all seriousness, she answered 'How do you know?'

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer.
EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse / partner . You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit).

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience.
You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called 'falling' in love... Because it's happening TO YOU .

People in love sometimes say, 'I was swept of my feet.' Think about the imagery of that __expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU .

Falling in love is easy . It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship . Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies , instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, 'Did I marry the right person?'
And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else.
This is when marriages breakdown . People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious.
But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it.
I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else.
You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't 'find' LASTING love. You have to 'make' it day in and day out. That's why we have the __expression 'the labor of love.' Because it takes time, effort, and energy . And most importantly, it takes WISDOM . You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships.
Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger.
It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable... you can 'make'love .

Love in marriage is indeed a 'decision'... Not just a feeling.

Remember this always :

'God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.'

Auntie Carina says i look like that... long face, long ears which resembles my long hair and most importantly short legs... but for those who are reading my blog, you guys still have to love me... specially YOU!

And this is the lil fella we brought home... Trax
He can really be a handful... but nonetheless, looking after him is fun and it's giving us good training in parenting haha... darlin said if we ever get married, Trax will be our paige boy...

Seeing you look after the lil one, i know you'll make a good daddy some day when you have your own kids, just who is the lucky wife and kids that get to spend the rest of your life with you.

*guess what mom said," if you guys are serious, you all should get engaged next year." i was like "WHAT", anyway that a topic for discussion many many more years to come.

till then, i just wanna enjoy the times spent with you, creating the best memories and not live a moment of regret. i do love you.

guess where i'm blogging from.... the bus
just left airport not long from seeing the boy for guess what
6 mins...
but good enough i suppose

darlin complimented me...
"you look so much better now"
why, cos i rebonded my hair!
yes.... finally!

was kinda upset last night...
i teared too
i know you'll read this hun,
but pls dun feel bad

i'm not exactly upset,
more disappointed i suppose
just wish you could be more expressive
all girls just like to know how the other feels inner most

guess sometimes,
i wish you'll tell me how important i am
just like how i would tell you
but nonetheless, i still love you so very much

each time i throw something like that on you
i feel bad...
cos shouldn't i already be contented that you love me
and with you i feel safe and secure, that i can be myself?

sometimes i wonder why do i even get upset.
but that's something i need to figure myself....

miss ya