it's christmas time!
nothing great, baby had to work
but just a simple outing to wanying's place for dinner
and a simple nice car journey

to be honest
i love to drive
but i do love the times i'm next to you
with you holding my hand

actually,
as i think about it,
you really do love me hun
sorry for the times i feel silly

just wanna thank you for the small little gift
but most importantly the gift from the heart

i love you

it's been a while since i've last blog
and i'm officially 23

birthday was nothing fantastic
just simple cake with my dear and his 2 great buddies
a lunch with a ben and jerry's customer
and movie with darlin and nigel Madagadscar.
do birthdays really just get boring or plain simple as one gets older
but i guess its just a simple day

i was alittle upset that this years birthday was just a really simple affair
but i guess i have to console myself with the many well wishes, phone calls and facebook posts
thank everyone for the well wishes and for remembering my special day

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

i used to have my silly thoughts
and wonder if he really loves me
but i've slowly come to realise
he really does love me even though he doesn't say much
my heart cringes when i think about him
i know i love him that much too haha

i told mummy that i can trust that nick wont fool around
but she says guys will be guys and dun be too sure
so my dearest, when you read this...
i'm sure you know what to do.

but i have to say,
darlin, your hugs make me feel secure
and i love being in your arms
i dun want this feeling to ever go away
the feeling of security
should it one that go away...
then i wonder what will happen.

for now, thank you dear

i havent been feeling the best of moods lately. i'm not sure why too. but i do know for sure that suddenly i'm missing brissy alot. the times spent with friends 24/7 doing thing we enjoy together, or even simple dinners or celebrations are such great fun.

maybe i miss the company, darlin nicole, my housemate gracie. though i meet gracie pretty often sometimes doing nothing just slacking at her place but it's just different i guess. as for my momo, i call her pretty often, often enough to irritate her i suppose. but nothing beats the physical meet ups. i miss the bubble tea sessions with the girls, kookai shopping, city outting, lecture sessions with momo, bus journeys to and from school, gym sessions.... etc.

i miss the guys for the road trips they bring us on, even if it's just a simple drive to gold coast for yama. miss the guys for sending us to school, dinners in down town city, shopping trips to harbourtown or dfo, sunshine coast etc. and i guess i miss him for the simple little surprises he used to give me... and my babe benefit in a way, how leslie would surprise you know who... along with momo and i.

brissy has many many memories dating back from mid 2006 to end 2008 though i never spent really long holidays, the photos accumulated mount up to over a 1000 pictures, pictures cannot describe how one feels, but yet i'm glad to say they allowed me to capture the many happy moments i've shared with each and everyone of you who have walked through with me this 1.5years.

it's been a year almost. perhaps i'm hoping someday, all of us could go on a getaway, a short one to maybe try and relive the moments catch up with one another admist our hectic lifestyle. i have to say that every moment spent with you guys are well cherished and kept in my heart.

Are You Really In Love?
Result: It's Love!
Whether you've been with your sweetheart forever or you just started dating, there's definitely a love vibe going on. You like to kick back and have fun together, but your feelings extend deeper than that. No matter how bad things get, you know you'll be there for each other. And that's the foundation of a strong, mature relationship. Now get out there and gross out all your friends with PDA's and other cutesy stuff.

i think i'm the luckiest girl to have found you
cos you're so forgiving with me,
the things you do
just makes me love you more

i little things you say
"i love you honey", "you wouldn't bear to kill me"
that you knew i meant alot to you
it's all these little things that make my heart melt

you don't have to give your life to me
just cos off all the things have done
but cos i know you can love me
and take good care of me

never see me hurt
nor hurt me
i don't know why
but you give me the feeling that i'm afraid to lose you

i may love to drive
but when you drive me around
i feel the safest
i love the way you hold my hand while you drive

the way you reach out to hold my hand
the way you give me that little kiss
i want you here
and i'm glad to be to your big part of your life

it's a long journey ahead with many uncertainties
but i'm sure together we can overcome this
if we are one
if we compromise

i'm sorry for the times i felt insecure
or inferior
but i guess i'm afraid to lose you
afraid thati wont be able to fill those shoes

but i guess i needn't worry
i just need to be myself
cos that's what you love me for
and we compromise for

thanks for the many fishing trips
doing things have never done before
you teach me many things
and a relationship is all about this

learning and growing together
and i'm glad you are here to grow with me
and to support me
and know that i'll be here to with every step you take

*hope it doesn't scare you that i can love you so much
i'm not trying to be over protective
but i really cherish whatever we share

suddenly i feel so stupid, i stumbled upon 2 comments you left on my blog and that brought me to tears i dunno why. perhaps cos i felt stupid for the previous post though i knew that at the back of my head i meant something to you.

i'm sorry

though i know that i you are really contented, happy, and more than glad that the financial instability is finally going away... i wish that you'll be more open about how you feel towards me, you'll talk to me, sms me sweet little msgs... i wish i knew how you felt towards me, how important i am to you. sometimes, i wonder how u felt if i weren't around. silly thoughts i guess i dunno maybe i miss you... maybe i feel that i can never fill the shoes that beixuan has had... maybe that are no shoes, i just have to be me... i dunno.

i enjoyed the weekend spending with you watching tvb dramas, fishing, simple bus rides or journies from one place to another. i wish we spent more alone time together. i miss the long nights we spent together at east coast, at labrador. with your new work schedule that is coming up, know thess nights are gonna be harder to come by. but i'll just make do with what i have and enjoy the times spent with you to the fullest. but could i ask to kidnap you on friday night, where it's just us, a slow drive to i dunno where, a simple chat, with you holding me.

i don't know why such a post came about. but i'm sorry and pardon this post. just read it for you info. love you.

i want to remember everything you say to me
for it to be part of our memories
i wish that everything you say to me
will come true


i'll have to say that this past 2 months, has been great. eventful, fun etc... (all the positive words you can think of). for the first time, we exchanged words in a pretty harsh tone but we both knew that it was cos of the insufficient slp after a night of fishing. i felt so guilty, that i didn't know what to say, i wanted to step out of the car and apologise but i was afraid, i allowed my ego to get to me. when you walked over, i was afraid you would scream at me or get even more angry at me. never did i expect you to apologise to me, i felt a huge sense of relief. that was when i knew that you meant a lot to me, that i made the right choice by taking the step with you, giving this relationship a chance.

dear, thanks for the fishing trip you brought me on. though i didn't help much and didn't learn much. but i just enjoyed the time has long as you were here with me. i was really tired to be honest, but knowing you were there and knowing that i'll be in safe hands was all that mattered. you know i enjoy the little bickers we have when i tell you i wanna drive, the little wagers we have while we bowl or when you bowl and league. just wanna say that i really enjoy my time spent with you.

i wish that all these will never come to an end. that you'll be here to walk with me through my ups and downs. be with me, be a part of the next big part of my life, walk with me as we endure and survive through the hardships. we'll get by through the financial instability and through all these, i'm sure it'll strengthen this r/s.

for now dar, have faith in yourself. have faith that you will make it big someday so long as the right opportunity comes. and come what may, i'll be here to support you and i'll be 2 steps behind. i have faith in you so don't ever think you'll fall short of what others think of you. should you need all the pep talk and assurances of yourself, you'll know who to come to.

i love you, i really do

happy 2nd month :)

the past week at your place,
made me think alot
but these are thoughts that i guess i will keep to myself for now
dont worry, nothing negative

i know there are many worries that are weighing you down
but pls know that as your gf,
i'm here to shared the load with you
so long as you're willing too

nights or time spent with you maybe simple
but honestly,
i love them
i love the way you hold me
the way you irritate me and make me smile
the way i never fail to get angry with you

i'll be here for you
watching and supporting you

and i pray that you'll be selected for the sq job :)

i'm so proud of my darlin
his determination to slim down
to make it for sq
and when he said that he was doing it for..
health, friends, family and gf
the word gf made my heart cringe

silly one,
i'll be here with you
through thick and thin
i know it's been barely 2 mths
i myself am surprised at how much i wish for this to all work out
i known it's very fast
but a part of me just knows that everything feels very right

i'm glad to be the one in your life supporting you
and i promise i'll be here

you know baby,
i'm grateful you came my way
i'm thankful for how things happened
and i thank the man up there for bringing you to me after 5 years

let's make the best of it
and paint the colours of each other's lives

love ya

10 Golden Rules for staying Happy with the One You Love

1. First and foremost, love each other. Realize how lucky you are to be in love with someone who loves you. Say “I love you” often and in different ways. Surprise each other often with gifts of praise to show your love. Remember that love grows in an atmosphere of freedom and trust, not from restraint and obligation. Do things to keep your love and romance new and alive. Don’t take love for granted, ever. It’s such a blessing…

2. Listen objectively to each other, as you would to a friend. Acceptance is a key to understanding and a buffer for tension and resentment. Don’t take things personally; give each other the right to have different opinions, the right to disagree. You don’t want anyone to control your feelings, so don’t try to own someone else’s, not even the feelings of the one you love.

3. Never stop treating each other like sweethearts. Talk to each other as sweethearts. Do things that sweethearts do. Share the chores around the house. Work together in achieving your goals. Do things just to make the other one feel loved, especially when he/ she might be feeling a little down. Take pride in the way you look and act, for yourself and for your partner, but never let external values have more importance than the internal feelings of your heart.

4. Take care of each other. Go to the doctor with each other. Put the other one first, but don’t neglect your own needs either. Do the things that show that you’re interested in your partner’s needs and desires and problems.

5. Look to each other for help. Don’t let your problems or concerns get out of hand and make you go in opposite directions. Be joyful that you’ve each made a commitment to each other… through sickness or health, poverty or wealth, or whatever comes along. You’re in this life together. Be thankful.

6. Talk about things together the way you would talk with a friend. Absolutely refuse to say anything negative about your partner. Share your most important secrets, and never betray the secrets of your partner; treat them as almost sacred. Keep your own identity, but walk together as one. Don’t ever give up on your love.

7. Settle the fact that you’ve made your choice and that you are no longer looking for anyone else. Don’t flirt and think of the consequences. Don’t consider it.

8. Be in agreement about how your money is spent. Big items should have the approval of both. Talk about how to manage your finances.

9. When in doubt about your actions, ask yourself how you would want to be treated and then act accordingly. If you’ve argued never go to sleep without asking the other’s forgiveness, even when you don’t feel like it or want to. Be faithful about this; you won’t be sorry. Do what would make you both the happiest in the long run and be the best for your relationship.

10. Have fun!

~Donna Fargo~

it's been barely 2 mths
but it feel like it's been a long time
everything just feel so great
i love the times
we have our moments of calling names,
i love the times even if we dont do anything
but i'm by ur side
baby, i'm loving you everyday
so much so i'm afraid

the elders will say find someone who loves you more than you love him
but to me,
it doesn't matter so long as i'm appreciated and loved in return

no matter how,
i wont let my insecurities get to me k ( i hope)
cos like you say if i want us to haf a gd future ahead,
stick with you and dont think so much

and so here i am
not moving an inch
so bear with my nonsense :)

i don't know much but i know i love you

my dearest has decided to fly for SQ
and he has logged on and applied
i'm happy and excited for him,
i'll always be supportive of what he does other (than his smoking)
but i guess,
there is that sense of apprehensiveness
of how people often say r/s with air stewardess or stewards dun work out
i guess i should say i have faith in you,
just like how you tell me to have faith in you
but the external factors,
people liking you and all would be something beyond my control
i am afraid of you going away, that i'll have to admit

but which ever the case,
i'll be here to support your decision
cos i know i'm partly the reason why you wanna work so hard
and for that i'll be here for you,
supporting and loving you

some people say one is together with another cos of convenience , comfort or even companionship.
the only word i disagree above, is the word convenience the remaining 2 words, i guess it's often a very thin line. but for me, i feel be it comfort or companionship, we all know that these are 2 important components of a relationship in order for it to work. most importantly, i feel that at the end, there is love for the person, i mean we cant stop loving a person 100% in the beginning, i guess it's a gradual process.

baby, if you are reading this
the first part may seem very pessimistic
but dun be mistaken
at the beginning, yes i told u i needed time,
but yet a part of me has slowly or almost quickly opened up to you
and allowed you to be a part of my life
i yes, the 5 years of foundation as a friendship played a great role
the 5 years, i have seen what you were like though now, as my bf... hmmmm it surely is different and i see a whole new side of you and your nonsense
but i'm glad to say that i gave us a shot,
cos i feel we are going on fine and that we are really enjoying having each other around
i'm thankful and i owe it to you

i feel that i have so much to say,
maybe one day i'll share it with you
it's always hard to really pen down the thoughts
but in short baby
Thanks for everything you've done
you know the simple yet great sacrifices you've done for me

i love you :)

i'm glad that things between us i would say are getting better
you are a man of few words.
but what you said that morning while heading to ur place in the lift
left me really delighted
and i'm glad you told me how you truly felt
like you said to me "dun be silly nothing will happen between us k"

i'm glad that you love the company of my closest friends
and i feel likewise when with your friends
baby, thanks for everything you've done
for being my chef together with ur buddies at my gathering when you really didn't have to
but i really appreciate what you've done
you make me wanna love you more.

and i hope we've built something that will last

Mamma Mia Movie night

Thanks dear, for heading out for movie with me though you were really tired.
i really appreciate it.

time files when you're enjoying life
from the nights of bowling,
supper,
quick lunch before your work,
watching you bowl your league
to the first movie with you
it's really been a month.

thanks for everything.
i'm sorry if i may be demanding
but i know, you do care
and would go the extra mile

*thanks for coming down to pick huddath and me up from her place then heading to jalan kayu for supper, then eventually to my place. you were really tired i know. but you still came down from the east. thanks darling

i feel that i have so much to say but i dunno where to start and i'm kinda tired

so i guess just 2 words are enough

missing you

This is for you

That's Us!

It's been about 3 weeks since then
the 24th of aug
everything is short but sweet
i admit i do have my times of grumbles
but i know once after the grumbles,
i'll be fine,
i just need and outlet for the grumbles
should u be the one to hear them,
i hope you'll pardon them and understand
but beneath the grumbles,
i know i miss you
and want you here as i walk on my journey
i want to be here as you walk on yours too
i don't know how long it'll go
but for now,
one word Contentment

i hope it's not a rollar coaster built to crash
at least i believe that is not what both of us wish to see

it'll take alot of work,
compromising, communication, tlc etc

but who said relationships were easy
it's not, but it's between 2 people, the 2 directly involved

so long as we have faith
so long as we protect what we share

love each other
and not hurt each other

it will go far,
we will be able to share a big part of our lives together

Sunday, September 7

Sagittarius Horoscope:
Ashley,For several days it has seemed hard to "connect" with your friends and loved ones, especially your significant other. Today, all of a sudden, they seem to "get" what you have been saying all along. Suddenly they are seeking out your advice.

Lucky Numbers
4, 12, 15, 16, 17, 34
Compatible Sign
Aries

built to last?
or built to crash?

i'm not sure,
all i know,
i'm finding myself loving more and more each day
i'm not sure if you feel the same

puzzled

i'm ready

i'm ready to embark on a new journey with you
i'm ready to be yours

i know i'm missing you
when you're not around

i'm so looking forward to meeting u
though it might be just a very short time

240808

some would say it's fast
but who is to comment
who is to say that it's companionship or not
love or not

i've known him for more than 5 years
funny how things turned out
where it would have taken us
no one knew this would have happened, neither did us

first a night of dinner with you and your frens
then u picked me up just to send me home, but we ended up at Labrador Park
then it was an evening out of dinner, then bowling then seeing the stars at east coast
thank you, for these simple yet wonderful nights

your character, the strength you have is necessary for a relationship of mine
and i thank you for being like that

you keep me safe

long bus journeys
one postcard
one sea otter stuff toy

a nice night out

really sweet

starry starry night

imagine after the sunny island has rained the whole day,
and still heading to east coast to chill

the word is freezing

it was a cloudy night
but as it approached earlier into the morning,
the clouds kinda cleared up
and then i heard,
your stars are out.

the coulds looked like a milky way
but as told, i spotted a squid
an imaginary one

the night was long, tiring but memorable

Thanks a million :0